I Feel Like the Universe is About Me...So...I Just Am...About the Universe - Gay Rural Talk / All Over the Place

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Hello everybody. Welcome to another episode. C's not doing so well. I'm Bobby. I'm Jan and welcome to another fabulous episode. I don't even say fabulous, but yeah. Beulah's welcome to a fabulous episode. We have a guest today. Ooh, fun. Hi gast. What's your name? Day. How's it going? What's your stat age? Sex Location. Oh wait, honestly, what's your pronoun? How Ready?[inaudible] let's do it. Let's do he him his pronouns. Okay, good. I like the inclusivity here. Um, but age 25. I wish the camera could be on you though right now because you like playing with that fucking wig. Like, I know that Rick is better. He's saying, Oh God, I'm Dave, you know, blah, blah, blah. I'm owning it. I'm owning this stuff, moaning it. Oh Wow. Hate it. How's that? Well, fine. Getting frisky up in here. All right. Today's episode is going to be a little bit different than probably the rest. I don't know if we have a street interview or not. We're kind of contemplating what, aside in the middle of the show, if we're going to do it like it. Um, but actually we have a voicemail. Okay. Oh, people are calling. Yeah, we have a good question. So let's let our six listeners are calling[inaudible]. No, we have 65 Oh, oh. Like solid listeners. I don't know what it means on the podcasting, but just, wow. Okay. I'm just saying you're growing. You're growing. All right. So let's listen to this and we'll answer. Okay. Thanks.

Hey guys, this is Carrie. I have been listening to the podcast. I'm loving it and I've listened to all the episodes so far, but I have not heard you tell us yet where you got the name. She's not doing so well, so I would like you to fill us in. Thanks.

That is such a good question on, I'm surprised we didn't say on the first day of that word. Episode six and then, yeah, we need a, a lot of people think it's like we're like, oh, she's not doing it. Like No. Yeah. It's not like a big play on words like gay guys.[inaudible] yeah. I want people like why this was a, this was about a ashy that we caught in Denver while we assume she, we didn't want to assume, but we said she, I said she, so we were, we got to Denver at like 6:00 AM. Yeah. I think the flight landed out. Yeah. It was real early. Tired. I became a Hilton honors member. We got a, you wheeled up in that hotel. You're like, I'm, I'm a Hilton honors member so that give you your free bottles of water. They let us check in or we checked in on like 9:00 AM to drop our bags. We were like, Oh shit, this is funny. I am now an honors member. No hot numb. Just like regular honors, right. Not A, you get hot, you're going to sleep. You're signing up so well. Right. So she goes, all you have to do is sign up and you can have the room. I'm like, okay, like

who Dave does.

Well, I was introduced. Yeah. I was like, I'm sorry for the interruption. Fucking gem. Oh, sorry. I totally forgot. I was like, are we back in Denver? Am I not? Okay. Okay. Anyways, so moving on. We got to the Hilton, blah, blah. Then we were like, let's go to the dispensary. I wanted to go. I've never been, I was nervous. It's legal, it's legal. So we went and of course I babied all like, what am I doing here? I have no idea. Yeah. Like Jim, Jim's clueless. I'm clueless. I'm like, well, I think I want to do like an edible. And she's like, oh, that's the lady. I forgot about this. So this the, this is the employee. Sandy and Spencer was clearly high and she just telling us, she goes, well, before I started using marijuana, I couldn't stand here before you. I would like sink to the floor. I mean, I'm telling you, I had so much back pain. It was literally ruin my life. And then I found marijuana and it changed everything. So I'm standing here before you because of marijuana and I'm like, yeah, Bobby's like, can you just say, can I get a boat? Yeah. So what are the ops? I'm like, I'm really scared cause I don't want to sound like you when I'm done taking this. But and also p s it was like five flights of stairs in Denver, so we'll go mile. I think it was illegal dispensary. I mean[inaudible] it gets better. Yeah. So I'm like two hours of sleep bodies out of breath cause we're at altitude, she's talking, I'm like, I have anxiety. I had to go like, we gotta go. So I'm like, ah, that's good. Let's go, let's go. So we grabbed the little edibles and I'm like, I'm taking one. So Jim's like, well we should, you should hydrate. And I'm like, yeah, I'm trying to like, he's trying to run over seeing, yeah, I want to go scheme. I'm like, I want to do drugs. And Jim's like, okay, well I'm not into that, but I'll like, he basically Babysat me the whole fucking time. So anyway, I'm taking my edible and we were at a Panera Drinking Fiji. I was drinking fucking Fiji, two of them[inaudible] we were, we needed to hydrate. I mean we were take a Fiji and we're just going to sit here and like, I mean I was just crystal, we were just going to sit there and let yeah let it happen. Like the edible that we had, the lady said it only took 15 minutes cause it's like something about water-soluble instead of low fat soluble. I forgot about that. And so I was like, okay. So I didn't think, I mean it was like 15 minutes, it was 15 minutes in that time, like Delta, like whatever. And then all of a sudden what happens? Well those are the hot as a business transaction. We were like, Oh shit, we're in the right place. Remember those hot guys that were like, Holy Shit. And I'm like, okay, we're like sipping our fucking water. Apparently they do business in downtown Denver. Like I've heard it was just to go and I'm like, isn't this like you were like where are we? Are we, is this, is there a business hours when it was hitting where our, so it's hitting and opens the door. Oh boy. This poor person walked in and it was sad, weighed 50 pounds wet. It was sad. It was sad and we just kind of wandering around the Panera like lost, lost, lost. I mean, and so then I think I went to the bathroom and that person was in the bathroom. Yeah. Not coming out. And I had some noises[inaudible] or something weird was happening in the stall next to you. So as I'm walking out of the bathroom, that's when the edible fucking hits me and I'm like, you came and sat down. I sat down, I look at Jim and I go, oh that person we saw walk in, she is not doing so well and for what? No idea what he's talking about. Cause he would have come out of the bathroom. Yeah. And that was the moment I fucking lost my shit. Then he just started laughing. I started laughing. It was a fun for this stuff. I was like laughing at me. So then the big joke became, cause then after we went skiing I fell on my ass like walking. That's a whole other episode. But thank God I got those edibles cause I just got high in the cabin. Why real stuff. But anyway, so basically what happens is, or wait, where was I at with this? I'm not on edibles now. I swear. I swear I'm not out of, let's say that Dave, this is[inaudible] we're answering. Carrie asked if anything would happen, it'd be like, Oh God, she's not doing so well. Like if I fell on my ass, like I would come home from skiing for lunch and look at Bobby on the couch and be like, she's not doing so well. And it just stuck. So then we were like talking about ever since we were talking about podcasts, we were like gay chat or you know, I'm trying to come with all these words and I go, oh my God, it's, she's not doing so well. And you're like fucking yes it is. Yeah, it is. So it stuck. And we're like, we're committed. God I, and I love it. I love it. I love it too. That's great. Cause we're messy and sometimes we mess up as when you forget if you've introduced her guests or not. Right. And I just forgot what I was talking about doing so well. Clearly I've had when you've had a white car too. Yeah. I mean, but you haven't, haven't had any, I know I've had half. Oh, you are? I didn't even[inaudible] you're ruining it. Oh, Rooney white. Because white calls going out of like business, not business. Oh, stop taking it away from everyone else. There's a shortage. I'm rationing. There's a shortage. Uh, why did you hear about this or no shortage and apparently, oh, Hio is the most basic bitch capital of the world because we consume the most. We do that in heroin. We are at the hot. Don't live in denial, Ohio. I mean, it's all, you can sometimes drink your white cloth and I'm just kidding.[inaudible] there is a real denial. Oh No, it's a man. I'm[inaudible] denial. Yeah, I've been there. I went there for the divert denial. I was in denial, Colorado, but that's it. Oh No. Yeah, so apparently white claws going, well, why[inaudible] basic people in Ohio? I mean, I'm a white call outlaw. No, there really is. And like honestly there is so what are they gonna do? Like they need to build another factory in China. No, I think that's, mm, not China. Oh, sorry. Oh well, I mean, I don't know. Wherever they want to fucking build it, just get it going. You know what I mean? Yeah, no, no, that's fine. There was an article I was reading, it's like go stock up on your white claw. Like legit. Well, it is always gone out during a blizzard. People are just gearing up with[inaudible] in a blizzard. It's bread and milk, breast milk. I'm not worried about the toilet paper. I'm worried about the flight. I'm actually worried about the alcohol. Usually when there's a storm I'm like, wait, do we have enough vodka? Just in case. Like we get scrambled for a day and I don't even drink vodka, but it's just like an essential, oh, you don't want, actually I do wine. Yeah. Oh yeah, we know. Yeah, don't do wine in the pen together. Which leads us our next story. Oh, I want to talk about the vape prices. I'm freaked out. I'm freaked out because it affects me directly. But, well there's like CBD pens and there's marijuana pens and there's these jewels and people are getting sick all over. But it's like, it's got one consistent product creation. A lot of variation. Some of it's just nicotine. Some of it's like street THC, whatever that is. Which are people just like, I mean people are just mixing marijuana, like baking marijuana. Then I'm like pin it with loading it in oil. Like what? Like motor oil. I mean like seriously motor oil vape. Well apparently you can buy these in China. These, that's why I wouldn't, you said China, I was like, oh, we don't need fake white claw to Oh God. So apparently they're sending these cartridges for like$20 for like a hundred super highly or highly fight him and eat right. Is that whoever's taking these cartridges, they're not full. They're empty. Right. And then they fill them with whatever they want. And so like I think some people even said there was a gorilla glue and some that they would not even like[inaudible] obviously because there were so, it's don't know, it's just like, why are you buying stuff on the street? Right. Like if it needs to be better regulated, it just needs to be legalized for snorting, not for vaping. Well, right, exactly. Just like the, hey, this is Dave[inaudible] wise beyond my years, gentlemen. Oh, here's what the school lost. We're like, oh my God, I'm 35 and he's like, I'm 25 and I know more than you bitch those exact words. But he was thinking, but he said it with that Sassy little hair curl. Well, so I hope they find something out. Figure it out soon. I know they are looking into the dying. People are dying. I love vaping. Marijuana and CBD. Sorry I said it. I don't care. Yeah. So it's one of those things where I'm a little concerned, but I also get my shit from a good, I think for a lot of people, I'm going to find me dead from a walk in one day and be like, isn't it time to record the podcast and be like for a lot it's not places, just the unknown, you know? We don't know about the causes and it's just like, this causes God bad shit. Something. Well, what's changed? I mean people have been vaping for 10 years. Why isn't it, why is it all of a sudden now[inaudible] vape? So it's like, why is it just the United States? If Oh, 40 million people a year are vaping, I want to know what's going on this year. We're freaking out. But yet cigarettes have been around for how long you killed people and we still allow sale of cigarettes here. I know. I think that it's become so popular and then the production is increased, right? And it's becoming and produced a black market and it's being produced in a lot more places and the regulation isn't there. So while you look to our neighbors of the North Canada, that's why they haven't utilized cannabis. They regulating it, but I don't know. They haven't allowed things yet cause they're researching probably like, yeah, they're looking at, they're looking into it. I can guarantee you vaping isn't any worse than smoking. I think it's just whatever's in it. It depends what's in it. A lot of research needs to happen and we need to wake the fuck up. And also if we tax it, like we can get out of our desks and probably will in taxed. Yeah. Did you know that uh, Colorado already has$1 billion this year already in revenue. Like from taxes, just from the taxes. That's all money. Now obviously if it gets legal everywhere, that's going to cut down for everybody. But I mean that can go to a federal crime. Right? Let's build those bridges, bitch. And you want to drop out prevention. I don't want to build a wall, but don't take it from our other shit. Yeah. I mean he wants to build a wall. No I don't. But if it legalizes marijuana and like talk to people, I'm not foreign at all. Trump, if he legalizes I'm like, oh. He said, no, no, I'm not getting the politics in this. Not Today. Not Tomorrow either. Yeah. That's like a whole, I don't even know if I really want to. I mean, I know we need to get into going to, we're going, we're going to, um, so I also want to talk about, we in gym and we went on a triple date this weekend, this past weekend. My God. Yeah. All this to me picking others and made them sit separate. And we basically sat together. We sat together and chatted the whole time outside triple date. Whoa. Who's the third? Uh, our dear friends friends. So we had a straight couple of straight couples. They were in a different row. Oh yeah. They put us in the back. They put us in the backs. They were like, the gays can be in the back, but the gays came up in the movie. We saw it chapter two, which is just like, okay, didn't see it. Chapter one. Oh, well then we're not even gonna ruin it for you. Mean now you're not gonna Watch it. So I'm going to run for anybody. I just want to talk about, let's just talk about the opening scene opening, right? It was one of the openings, like it's like it starts main pivot of why they're coming back to this town. So paint the picture. Basically you're like, here I am to get scared, let's do this. And it just starts with this gratuitous hate crime. Like it's like flight get what they're trying to do. It's a gay couple at a fair in this small town called dairy, which is like the main town in the show in the movie and the book. Right. And they obviously get beat up and one of them gets thrown over a bridge. I mean then an evil clown eats him. But anyways, it's just like a phone. You don't know. You don't know this gay couple at all. They're not characters from the previous movie. I know you just sit there and it's like here's a gay couple. Oh, they're in a small town, which is like, but this is like the[inaudible] those like it's 2019 why are we showing, I mean I don't think anybody should have gotten like killed, but I mean obviously it has it so people are going to get, you know, it's just, I don't understand why he had to like use the f like Faggot,[inaudible] faggot. I'm like, Oh my God, this is like if somebody really had experienced a hate crime and trigger, that's a super Troy guy watching liking flashbacks to Undergrad and high school. Like it was bad. But at the same time I didn't see the purpose of it in the movie, so I was all gape. I was why did it have to be on marginal? I mean this clown is killing everyone. Like it could have been a straight couple, could have been anyone, could have been anybody. Great White Cop, could have been a black couple in a small dairy, Massachusetts. Even then that would've been wrong. Knowing. That's the thing. I don't know how they would portray it, but like the way that they, like they didn't have to your own in their slang and like make it seem like we were back in like, I mean the 1970s unfortunately hate crimes are still happening. They are, they are. But let's not, I don't know, just don't[inaudible] it wasn't, that wasn't a way of bringing awareness[inaudible] shit was to be a horror element. Speaking from the wall. And then also in continuing me on, it calls the one guy who was gay in the movie, but he's holding his secret to secret as yeah, whole story line. And he's like, I know your dirty little secret. I'm like dirty. Like why are we still having this narrative of like, yeah. You know what I mean? And obviously the character probably thought it was dirty. He, well you remember, cause he's[inaudible] now you've internalized all of this, right? So it should be, you should feel guilty. It's like you said that you felt we all felt guilty for coming. I'm just, I mean, oh well, oh my. Slash I'm Bobby comes. Sorry. I was just trying to like mix it up and, oh, we got the game. Well you did it. It worked. Oh, I'm gonna have to rewind that one. Okay. Whoa. So do you want to do the street interview? Yeah, it's long, but it's Ah, it could be another, it could be another. Cause we're not really talking about what he was talking about. He goes into some crazy[inaudible] some very interesting stuff. I think we're going to say fuck it. I'm playing it fine. Fine. Okay. And honestly, if you guys want to skip forward, it's definitely different. It's definitely, um, it's Kinda ramble-y but there's some good points in there. Just I'm going to let you take it as it is, honey. Okay. So this is, she's not doing so well and I wanna you agree to be on the podcast? Can you say just your first name? Manji Manji

what, how old are you? I am 28 years old. Oh, 28 ripe and ready. So, um, how long have you lived here? Um, on and off. Most of my life. Oh really? Yeah. Local Ish. I've traveled the country. You seem like you have long hair, you have like a, I see this, a little medallion or something right here. Explain to me what this is, what like are you like into the universe or ish? You know, like I feel like the universe is about me, so I just am about the universe. Okay. So this specifically, um, my friend gave it to me. Um, her name is Christine. She's amazing. Um, she gave it to me because it protects me against like cell phone signals and like Wifi signals and stuff. I mean it's made out of[inaudible], which is really good for like spiritual connection and just like preventing you from experiencing negative experiences through vibrational frequency. So it's like really about it. And I was like, okay. And it's really helped me a lot. Even if it's just like psychosomatic, I'm like, okay. Like, yeah, I picked great cause I have a song. Right. So awesome. That was awesome. So another thing that you could use is like Unikitty or something like that. You in a Chi is a green and pink stone that you can get on the Internet that sucks you from other things, but also Shung guide. Um, you can actually get shun guy from a local store here in Columbus. Um, it's over in grand view. I forget what it's called. It's like natural spirits or some shit, but they have like, um, Sean Guy, orb and Sean Guy like, um, like pyramids and stuff like that, that will protect your whole home. Um, I like the pyramids because they're just so like connecting like it's like our ancient part. So like you'd get them and then you're just like, oh, this is protecting my home. So I want to ask you, do you, what do you think about the afterlife? Um, I am excited for the astro life. Absolutely. Yes. I feel like we all initiate ourselves into this reality because we have initiated ourselves previously in different forums and I don't believe that it's all been physical, but I believe that we all have been connected to this form in a way that has helped us to transition into the people that we believe that we're supposed to be in. So I, I feel like if we were this person before then we wouldn't know about it. And I think that's where Deja Vu sets in and I feel like that's where we are connected to ourselves. So in all reality, I feel like we've already been this self and we've already been ourselves before and all realities are coalescing into this moment to manifest our true divinity at all points. We really are just on point, you know, honey, I'm going to switch it up. That's so deep and I'm very appreciative of it. My God. Absolutely. I'm going to switch it for you. I'm going to kind of throw you off here. I'm going to throw you off your game. Tell me what it's like to date in 2019 as a gay male. Are you gay? I don't even know. I am actually too spirit and I'm native American. So it's disenfranchise from me in that way because I am a perspective oriented person depending on who I am with depending on their own cultural inheritance. So I am here to help other people involve themselves with themselves. So when it comes to the dating arena specifically, I feel as though in 2019 it is specifically oriented towards like who we are actually manifesting ourselves to being. So first and foremost, are we in love with ourselves before we actualizing and another relationship with each other, right? Like that's a real thing though. Like if you really think about it, is it relating to us? Am I speaking about things that are relating to the entire humanity, right? Not expect this. And I am just going to let you know I'm, I'm here for you and I'm here to represent you and I'm here to represent humanity and we're here to represent all people of color, of nationalities, of all influences and sexualities because there aren't voices. I'm a white presenting male person and I am here to represent multiculturalism. And connectedness in a way that is only consciousness space. So who I am as a person represents who I am spiritually and sexually. So when it comes to me and my relationships, I am here to like actualize that I am a person that represents a person that isn't myself yet. So I acknowledge that I am not yet ready for a relationship. You're just like a free spirit. Literally I am flowing with the universe because the university is going with me. That is so awesome. Okay, so in closing, what is one thing you would say to just anybody to give them like some advice or to give them some like good vibes. What would we want to think of advice? Let go. Let go of the shit that you're holding onto because obviously it's something that you're holding onto and that represents resistance bitch. So please acknowledge that you are resisting what you're resisting because in all reality, if we're resisting anything that is not our true selves, and when you follow the resistance and you started, you start to recognize that there is resistance in your life. What you're going to recognize is that there is good that you acknowledge in yourself, independent of others and fluences on you. You will recognize that there is a moment that you recognize that are is a moment in yourself that is connected to who you are and then when you recognize this experience in your life, then once an upon a moment you recognize that none of those thoughts mattered to you, that none of those moments mattered to you and that all you are is this coalescing to lies, expression of the universe that is you. So all you have to hold onto is the present moment. And to recognize that you are a flowing consciousness that exists

was so much we might have to have you actually on the show like legit with the microphones in front of your face. Would you ever be on our show? Awesome. Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. So if you're still there, if big f big F, that was our street interview that we had available. Let's just go over a little bit of it quickly. First of all started poorly. He said the universe is about me. Yeah, I would like to defend him, Bobby. I mean, I don't know. I don't know. I guess that's for everybody's interpretation. I guess. Sort of you're, I'm glad I went out there and talked, but I mean, I have a thing about this though. What? Oh God, I can't, what am I going to go into this? Oh No. It kind of goes back to the anxiety thing, but not really. But I do feel like you're your own universe sort of because you created you, but you can't, like, everybody's going to be Dave. Dan here he goes. But I really feel like prey, nobody, I don't know how you see out of your eyes. Does that make sense? You don't see out of them. Light comes in and hits your retina in the back. I'm not asking you for like some kind of like colors can be different. What my red is right. When you don't know, you're just told that it's right. Well we, we might see it wrong, but it's still gonna measure the wavelength. It is, we call a certain wavelength red. So what I see is red, you can see is purple. Why am I purple? But it's still red bright because we can that we can measure a wave length. It's science. Here you go. Scientists. Sorry to ruin it. But you're right. Yeah. Percentage[inaudible] I added my own universe. Anxiety everywhere. You're in my universe. I'm I guess in yours, but am I or you in mine. It's hard to explain. I know. I saw like Lauren, sorry, I'm on the third party and I could confidently say that Bobby is and about 80% he's in someone's universe right now. God, at least 80% I would say either this time. I know she's not. Oh, go ahead. Continue with your points. Cause the next point, the medallion that blocks the cell phone signals being the hell. Do you get that a, I don't know. I mean while I have my[inaudible] his face, he pulled out his crystal crystal. This is my Shag mate and the shag tight. I'm like, God, I would have him. I'm not either. I want to meet him. Yeah. The interesting thing, it's like it was way over my head. Yeah, I think I'm just missing it. Um, I liked when you butted in and said, honey, I'm gonna switch it up cause that like I didn't even know how to transition in the honesty. I, he was like dancing his ass off when I was there and I was like, oh this is going to be like, oh he's having fun. Oh Wow. He's pre had a lot to drink. Like how do you feel about the afterlife? Well then I had to get serious though because he was like, if I come on your podcast I want to talk about like the universe. So that's when I, when I asked him at the beginning and he's like, he seems like a very a mean Amy mean and he's laying on him. That's really all. I mean there were some other phrases he used to actualize a lot, which is an interesting way of framing it. I don't that up actually just going to actualize you actualize your thoughts. You like bring them into existence. I think it's worth, I think it's like when you, I dunno, manifests, manifests and I'm like, and I was trying to keep up and I was gonna be like, I'm going to switch it up. What was your favorite sex position? And I'm like, well, he would be like the cryptic cross with myself to the universe and let it enter me fully. I'm a force spirit, so it goes on my, all my holes. I'm like, I don't know what's happening. I don't know. Like, I don't know. Luckily it wasn't there, but I really appreciate him coming on. I'm not making fun. Like it sounds like, I mean, I'm really not. I think we're very interested in we need to learn more. Yeah. It's a learning Saul and it's confusing for me, especially when I was drunk doing the interview. Yeah. Drunk too. So I w I'd be interested to have a sober conversation with him.[inaudible] I really would. Yeah, I would like that. Okay. Alright, so moving on from that violin under the table, finally your turn to shine, Dave. It's about time you've been at. Okay. We were trying to get you to be a guest host, but okay guys, you're not about anymore. Oh God, totally room for one button. This one bar. Yeah. Strapped. So straight out buds. I have something to talk about. One, you are from a town that is very small so I kind of wanted to talk to you about your, you know, how you grew up and tell me about your, cause you're from rural America. Ooh, I'm getting good at that. It's our fourth. Doesn't know how to say. I mean this episode, Huh? Huh? I mean if we're being fair. Every time we tried to this episode we were like in full blown party mode and it just wasn't working. Now very rarely to Merrill Rural America shoving his hole with pizza. Oh my God. It was and I just did earlier too. Yeah, we all did. I don't know why your common thread you shoved before this episode, so this won't go well. Yeah, we're going to you Dave. Dave, tell us about yourself. Tell us about your family life. How did you grow up? Oh you now, how do I know? Well, we'll find out. I'm always the light grew up in a small town

in Pennsylvania outside of Pittsburgh. Okay. Pittsburgh for life, steel city or concrete concrete jungle where dreams are made of steel bridges, city of bridges, three rivers. And so I grew up in a town of like 900 people. So we talked about tiny, we did not have one traffic light. Alright. Knock on honey. Tiny. I'm talking like wow. Miniscule are you related to all 900? Probably. Somehow you got to climb up that family tree, Dominic Creek and then fall down and hit every branch on the way. Yeah. It's not even a joke. You never know. Um, but anyways, so I'm sorry, I can't help curl my hair. But anyways. Yeah, so 900 people and it was a very small Christian town, like built on Christian values. Um, lots of churches or there originally were more bars and churches, so I was about that. But then some bars, steel city is though, it's like everybody goes to the bar and they pray later. Bars, bars, bars then burned down though. Bars burned down, the Italian club burned down. What do we do? The um, yeah, y village in which was another one burned down. Why are bars, bars are down? Is it around pennywise? We don't know. We don't know. We don't know what the deal, well, so there was one kitchen, fire, kitchen, fire. The Italian club. We don't know. Still there were some Taco bell. Normally there's, there are some[inaudible] Larson. We have one police officer and he's part time. So, oh, in your town you run the bars to call them, like come to sheriff Dave's. That's why. Let me tell you about the bias. You can[inaudible]. You can just think of this scene here. We have paint, we have the Polish club, we have the Italian club, we have the Moose that Campbell[inaudible] times currently. Don't look at my movie. The camera can't see down there, but I can looking at my fucking Moose, we have m and m pizza, which also serves alcohol and whew. It's getting frisky under the table. And what else do we have? I feel like there's one that I'm missing so far. Animals and nationalities. My buddies tavern, my buddies, Tavlo buddy buddies. What's up with those buddies? So if you guys heard about'em bud sex, Ooh, no, I mean probably, let me fill you in. So fill me fill. So they're actually a lot of scholarly articles that are going out about this phenomenon in America called bud sex. So it's these heterosexual identifying males in rural, raw, rural America, rural, correct. Rural America that have sex, but they site in fish is heterosexual. So it's just like buds having sex with buds. It's no big deal. It's just like fun. But sex, you know, it's interesting because a long history, like you look back to the Romans and the Greeks, like homosexual sex was very common. Man would have sex with like and like, and like during the wars like warriors, they would have like, they got to let that little girl, I mean seriously, if it's kept inside then you're have attention. You're not fighting your right way. Right. So you got to release that testosterone just made a dog. Okay. I was like, is that their one? What? I clearly don't want to spill your seed sacred. Yeah, true. And let's say that's a thing, right? That's been super common. But now in the 21st century, we have the same idea of like, but it's like, I don't want it, like I'm not going to identify as homosexual. Do they have to? No, but like, it's just a phenomenon. It's happening. So it's making us ask questions of like, what's it mean to be homosexual? Where is that? Like, what's the definition? Is there a definition? Like, you know, everyone identifies differently. So I just don't know what to say to that. It's about, can't even tell you what I was just about to say. It's about nine inches deep. Wow. And so, so anyways, um, they actually, you know what though? For a helming 900 people, they actually filmed a movie in my town. Let's just talk about that. Britney spears movie, Big Dave, Matt, Matt Damon. How about them apples? Hog Person. He is, I met Z. Yeah. You know? Yes, he's a, he's a dream boat. Oh, that's thick. He is. Yeah. He's like, how tall was he? Great with kids. Phenomenal kid. How young were you when you met? I mean, it gives me that, I'm like, Daddy Vibes, you know? Yeah. He seems like a dad, but he's like, I twink though. But he's also like, oh, okay. Like goodwill hunting[inaudible] like 1984. Matt[inaudible]. Yeah, he's a full blown daddy. He's a daddy or an uncle. I have a picture if you want to see of you and him. Yeah. This is Dave with bangs who, Oh God, we need to talk about that. What made you decide to have that talk about rural America and Dave Happened Bang, Abercrombie and bang, you know, really the nineties[inaudible] banks from birth at 93 until probably my freshman year of college. I'm sorry. Sorry. Did you say 93?[inaudible] cool. So, um, why did I have so was that even a big, I mean maybe you were just like a small town thing else. I knew nothing else. They like started as the bulkhead and kind of when you're buying on that wig right now, cause that forehead, I wish some shoulders mashed them hips, but they mean, you know what I, I recognize my fivehead and I embrace it. So thing. I have a fivehead too. So here's the pitch. I also met, I also met great hair, John Krasinski. I don't know if we have any office fans in here. Oh yeah, he plays Jim. Here's Matt Damon all about showing it off. Oh Wow. With my seniors. 2012 I graduated 20 2012 I graduated high school. Oh Oh two so far. This was me wearing my senior shirt that said 10 years later. Oh my God, my 10 year anniversary. You were fucking graduating high school. That's a scary I can Matt Damon. Wait, I met Damien was, wait, how young were you when that picture is inappropriate? I was 18 it was eight title Matt Damon says the world's not ending. We're just taking over because the apocalypse was supposed to happen in 2012 so six six oh six was like a big thing in 99 99 was it as John Krasinski live? Horrible in person.[inaudible] who else I met with? He is very cute. I want to pay him and he's looking great these days. Why are they in your town again? So they were filming a movie called the Promised Land. It's about fracking. Yeah. It's about fracking. It's actually a very like rural America. Your role in the backyard. Geico. Yeah. Fracking and my fracking in Pennsylvania probably. So anyways, I met Emily blunt as well, so I don't know. She's in devil wears Prada. She plays like the other assistants or something else. John Krasinski is looking thick though. He's like put on a lot of monsters. I'm all about it. I'm all here for it. But anyways, back to rural America. Yeah. So that was huge for our town. That was a big sorry diversion. That's fine. We learned something new about you, about me. And that was a big, that was a really big thing for our town growing up. Um, church, church, church, church, church and set it up. Work, work, work, work, work, church or church. Right. And then amendment church[inaudible] cried. God, that was awful. Take the body of Christ. Christ. Christ raised. Sorry. And I think if I heard, I'm one of your street interviews on this show, so there was a little, I'm you listen to the podcast. I, yeah. Wow. Yeah. MCU. I'm a huge fan. I guess we only have 64 because there was actually a, there was a street interview where this person had some incident happen in a church near where I grew up.[inaudible] up to look stained glass. I thought it was on me. I live very close to that town. I went to college in that town. That church too was probably dead. Let's be honest. It's like club culture. Like who goes to the, well, well a place. It is a place that's back in Roman times again or Greek or whatever the fuck you want to talk about going to work out. Go along this turning back to the classics. Um, so what, what God, the mic

on my phone was just on, so I was, oh, this is, someone just got a message. It said this person has some incident happened in a church near where I am looking up by the stained glass. I thought it was, I thought it was on the alter. The game master. Well, it is a place I just sent that to someone. Oh No, no, they're gonna think. How do you Denver, how do you even explain that? Like you can't, you can't, my God, I'll say listen to the podcast. So yeah, going back to me because that's what's the most important thing in this episode. No, but growing up essentially in Trump, America, um, confederate La flags all over the place. Bernstein is, you're in fucking Pennsylvania that was in there. It is a true mystery to me. And they're like, you don't like our flag. You need a history lesson about heritage. Do I need what? Like you are racist is where the underground girl. Yeah. Like you owe like you got fours for slavery. Like what else do I need to do when they take out their heritage? Like why are you proud of being slave owner? Correct. And fighting of them or in order to continue to have slaves. Right. And also value is what you're fighting. And I hate to state's rights. No state. Right. To have slaves. That's right. That's right. That's right. And they succeeded. And we all know that America, yeah, they can have slaves. I just think it's funny though that, I mean, I'm not right. People are acting like, you know, the GOP is like basically a lot of the confederate states. And so they're talking about like the snowflake, right. And all these miracles, zippy, Alabama, they're still crying about a war. They lost 150 years around the south relies again. Right. Without the rising gang. That why don't you stop mooching off the government for a little while? Cause let me tell Ya, when you look at the states that take in more tax dollars and they put out almost all of them are in the south and they're all red states. I mean I'm just telling you

it was, it was definitely an interesting thing growing up. Calm is, I was from a small town, right. But our school district was big as hell. Like I had, my graduating class was like almost 400 people. So it was like pretty significant. Yeah, I guess it's not, yeah, cause that's half your town that I[inaudible]. I mean, yeah, technically like half of my town didn't go to my high school. An obvious, I'm gonna say probably shut it off to be honest. So, but anyway, let me have him finish. I mean, um, but anyways, it was very difficult because I would like, I had inklings I was gay, but I wasn't about to be common out because honey to be coming out at that time in my life surrounded by, there were like probably approximately 10 people of color in my graduating class at that like, yeah. And we knew like two people that were actually out as gay at my, in my graduating class. So not even that. Probably less than that. Yeah, we only had like two or three. Yeah, it was super low. So did you, when you like did you know your family know any gay people? Like as gay adults? Like, so my mom actually had a friend, she graduated high school at that. She would always like talk smack on him on Facebook and be like, um, oh look what blah blah, blah is doing, he's with his boyfriend, blah blah blah. And he's like a famous singer in New York. Like he's on Broadway, off Broadway and this is now our white car breaks. Freaking the last white clause in America. Honey. It's getting deep. So we got somebody gotta do it. Some of that's been deep. I'm about to take a knee. Take a knee here. Um, on, on the nails for this episode is a fucking two white, she's two white gloss deep. Literally the real one. Well you're on your second one. Why can't I open, embarrass for you, Dave? Can't open a white cloth.[inaudible] straight and occupational therapy. So my question for you then on top of what you were just saying, I don't even know what he was saying. I'm talking about being like knowing, having inklings that I was gay, but they're like two people out in my high school of like this sea of straight people are so evil that is brisk. Got to see a straight people see a straits. I mean we've all been there. Yeah, it's called 4th of July parade. It's called everywhere. It's called life. It's called Tom. I've always said the standard home. So let's talk about, let's talk about like the best thing about rural life. Was there anything that you really intended about as a part of me? So when I go back home, it's a super big struggle too. Just like you just saying, hey man, I'm three three sips into that white claw and I am just struggling. Um, you know, but it's a struggle going back home with my identity as being an out gay person. Right. And then having to go back and pretty much covering that all up because not all of my family knows and I'm out of the closet and then I'm gay. Right. So I mean they should know because I mean, have you seen this hair? I'm just look at your face. They fix for mile hunting.[inaudible] guys told stereotype. Yikes. Um, but any last shoes got offended? I don't care. Do you ever kinda third spirit got time to care? So too old. I do like going back home and being like surrounded by nature. Like it is a shell. Like that's nice. Going back on hearing. So like I'm here in Columbus, I hear the fricking highway 24, seven like I, yeah, right by two 70. Like it's a, there's always, there's always like, it's like six, five o'clock in the morning, their cars beeping and it's just like, thanks you on the way to work. That'll be me. So going back home, not hearing that nasty traffic and like being able to just fall asleep to the crickets, you know? Oh No, I agree. Because when Michael lived in Latrobe, I would drive, we were long distance. Yeah. We're allowed to say that I got for awhile. Okay. Um, but while they trope, yeah. So let me tell you, it's near and dear. My

town, it's far and it's just like your town growing up. I used to actually enjoy going there. There was a country road I used to call it. I was like[inaudible] you belong. Yeah. It was like so fun to drive on that road though. Cause every season it was different. Every season there was a tree out there that like in the summer we do have trees in Pennsylvania.[inaudible] there's about to be a knife fight. UDL. The lights are going from blue to red on these down we got on, we've got new lights under the phones anyways. You saw a tree. I used to like going to the country though. Like, I mean it would be a nice, it's crisp or something like the air you see stars. Like it's, it's like going off west to be honest. But if not having a bonfire, you look up at the sky, you see the stars. It's really refreshing. It was nice. Back Mountain. Uh, it's not quite broke back in Pennsylvania. No, it's not. I mean we'd go to Calgary or something. Oh Damn. I've been there. I've been seeing there. It's beautiful. But I'm sorry, but the Canadian Rockies are bigger. They're better.[inaudible] better. Yeah.[inaudible] if you don't, I don't, you definitely doubt skiing was horrible for me since I discovered in Breckinridge anyway, cause I want to hear your impressions. Oh, I, like I said, um, I liked it, but I was also scared of it at times. Like I'm, I don't know it, you know, we would go walking and I'd be like, well, where'd the gay couple? So, and I'd act really broey on purpose. Um, but yeah, you are the token gay couple and they child like h, which I have coined as to be clearly honest, just at fines. FYI, you're already trying to make a trademark. Do you have lot social media manager? Oh wait, we can't see your face on this episode anyway. All right. Preserved. Oh, uh, pulling out that blade. I love, I went live on, on Instagram and there's literally one person watching these guys, but I'm still checking my emails. So now I need to, okay, so let's talk about then you coming out, because obviously if you're in a small town and your parents were probably not that liberal, what, what's happening over here? Jim? This is a nightmare. This is like supposed to be the sober episode that were like redoing for the fifth time and it's turning into, on bound to be a train wreck. Like we're just going to go with this. It's bound to be a nightmare. Pauline, you live out. Welcome. So coming out something that was really hurtful and painful for me, but let's just laugh about it and make a bad joke and smile. Okay. Oh God. He's losing it, Dave. Wow. Bobby is, listen, I'm going to get it. I'm going to reel this in really quick. What did you say, honey? I'm a switch it down, honey. I'm going to switch it off. I miss switch it up. Let's talk about that afterlife. I need you to give me a Afterlight sentence. Sansar

how did you come out to your parents? Oh, we were by the bonfire one. It was after Columbus too. I was like, mom and dad. I'm gay. Three. Aw, that was good. Okay. Wow. Then in three sentences, what's your mom and dad say? Any boundaries you don't like that you're living on narrative. Okay. We need to eliminate it because look what you're saying. That 10 minutes, 47 minutes. Oh, me a long one. Down to 40 listeners. Yeah, but there's also an accountant. I'm going together. As I say, like that's one. There was a cabin. No. So listen. So I told my parents there was coming back after my trip to Columbus, I was looking at Ohio state and I was trying to look for a place to live out here and look, Columbus looked amazing. I mean, compared to my town in Pennsylvania, stop counting my sentence. It's like a lot of run-ons like this. So I have a lot of complex ideas. Okay. So, so you better. And so anyways, um, we came back from Columbus and my parents were like, you know, Dave, we're really proud of you and all that you've done and you got this position at Ohio state, blah, blah, blah. And I'm like, okay. Well they just said that they were proud of me. So let's just follow that up with, I was inspired because I saw how liberal Columbus was. I saw the real, Oh man, this is gonna be myself. So I'm like, let's start with my parents. So real quick, have you been out to other people? I was. So at that point, I actually came out when I lived in Spain. So Spain is one of the most liberal, open-minded countries in Europe. When it comes to like LGBTQ communities. So, um, I came out in Spain and it was really interesting that whole experience because in Spain it's very much, I would say it's more normalized here. It's accepted in the u s but not normalized yet. In Spain, when I came out it was like, Hey, I'm gay. And all my friends were like, okay. And they were like, yeah, I am y'all bro. And then here, you know, it's in the u s the typical, her Mama, she hermano that's some wavy and see a Mondo. Oh, well Mama, um, oh brother. Oh yeah. I mean, I don't have a brother then God, how do you say Zadie in Spanish? Is that the, so then you came home. I came home and, and like in the u s the whole ritual is like, um, oh, I'm so happy for you. Like, oh, that's great. You're living your life, which is nice. But I think that shows, it's not as normalized here. I'm still like, wow. Oh my gosh, you're so brave. Are like, I just want to exist. Honestly, just want to date to be honest. And I don't hate it, but we hate it. We hate it. Dating. And then it's like, okay. So I had told some like my best friends here in Pennsylvania, and it was like the whole, they were very supportive. I told my aunts and uncles also super supportive, can't wait to come to your wedding, blah, blah, blah. Very nice. Yeah. Yeah. So like you better believe I'll be there. Then it was time for my parents, which I knew would not be chill because they are the two that never left small town. Right. They are hardcore conservatives, hardcore Catholics with the Sur. The church says that goes right. So I told them, we were sitting by the bonfire. I asked if you like Columbus. Yeah, it's great. I think you're going to have a really good time there. And I was like, so I wanted to talk to you about something that that dot, dot, dot, dot. I'm gay. I'm gay. And it was just dead silence. Nothing. I went on my spiel and my Soliloquy, right? Like literally the literal crickets and I just went off. I deserved a lot of who I want. I'm a human being, blah, blah, blah. And then at the end, we all know the Soliloquy. We've all given it at some point in our life, right? And so support it. But I, I love, they're like, we'll love you no matter. Like we'll always love you. And I'm like, okay. And I said, do you have anything to say? And they were like, no, nothing. So I went left, walked around my town, just a very hard time. I had a family member, no names are going to be given, but they were like, do not tell your grandparents, Dave, if something happens to them, to their health physically because of how they react to being gay. That's on your conscience. So it was very, very deep. That was like, that blade just went right in there. It was, it was wrong. It was on my conscience. So there's that cath like super world. She's a Catholic Christian. Yeah. Tell us a story about where you're going to end up. Oh yeah. In a monastery, y'all know, long after the monastery, after your body gives up, when you give up your spirits. Gosh, this discussion just happened a few weeks ago. So I came out to my parents, this was three years ago, but we should be sort of right? We're like starting to heal, starting to move forward. A few weeks ago, I'm talking to a family member shall remain nameless, and they say, Oh, you know, I never said this, but you know, I, I'm afraid that I'm going to die and you're going to die and we're not going to end up in the same place. Grandma[inaudible] hell. I'm like, oh. I was like, grandma, I was like, whoomp there it is. Like, Oh, do I need to pray for you didn't need to light a candle. So I was like, thank you for actually saying it to my face. I'm like, I know you've been feeling that. Like you've held that ideology close to your heart and you felt it. So thanks for saying it's my face. So these are still things that I am the negotiator, right? So it's hard to break that. That's what they grow up with. They're brainwashed in my opinion. So what are your views on God today? Ooh, I'm going deep, but it might as well, I'm going to switch it up at this point. Oh Bitch. I'm, I want to say, honey, I'm going to Swanee. I'm a switch it up to be a long episode. It's fine. So my views on God, um, I believe in God still, but I have a very different perspective on God fitting my than my, than my parents. And then the Catholic church, it's like any God that's going to me for being gay is not a God that I want to worship. So, um, if you think that I'm going to go to hell, any of this person was like, well, Dave, how do you know? Like, how do you know you're not going to end up in the same place as me? I'm like, because I'm a good person and I know that. Right? And I like fight for the rights of others. Those who are marginalized, those who you know don't have a voice. Like I know I'm a good person. I do the right thing. That's how I know, right? So I still believe in God. I still do believe in God. I'm spiritual. Do I know like, and I think it's okay. Actually had someone asked me this, I don't know, like I don't know what my exact answers that question. I think that's okay right now because I'm still like discovering. And I also think that all religions have a solid point you can take from them. Right? Like Buddhism has some really interesting like philosophies that I think we can take. Christianity. I think Manji has some interesting philosophies to church. The United Church of Manji.

I don't know about that. I might, he might be a Minnesota.

Yeah. Um, okay. I'm gonna keep spit firing here. We're going to be spreading your spot. I'm on a sweater. Oh, I'm not even gonna swallow. Um, oh God. Who did you look at as a role model for you growing up? Was it a somebody who was like a public figure? I Guess

Matt Damon, besides Matt Damon and Jim for, uh, honestly role model and like high school. Darren, Chris, I don't even know who that is. Oh, you're not the one that everyone is convinced as gay from Gleevec. Somehow straight. I didn't want Scully. I know he's like there to die fluid. I mean, if I couldn't want to that'd be outed. Them Glick. Billy, what's Glee? Isn't that an emotion? Isn't it like a Geisha is, it's like in Lima, Ohio. Did you see Benny drama's video on coming out like me? You definitely have because you showed it to him. It was like the Benito Skinner or whatever it's on. It was like me and high school and it was before coming out. It was like, I'm not gay. I'm not[inaudible]. He's great. Yeah.

But um, yeah, no, so my role model was like, yeah, I guess Derek, Chris. But I even had role models actually where those were my band directors, believe it or not, like real life people, real life people within my community. I was really close with one and he, but like it was fun because they were also super like their music artists and they're like super liberal. So to have that person to look up to him like, oh, like are you that you play a musical instrument? Yeah, I play the Horrigan. Oh my, those keys, honey, the pedals,

he look, get the whole legs, play the little legs go and our hands are more mouth.

We're both on them. Buttons on the mood I'm in. I'm very talented. That's what they've told me. Dangerous. And we should get you to play a little piece.

Presbyterian brother. You my be like my little B while I look over the Presbyterians just rave about me. Like, let me tell you, I mean no, but I do, I played the piano organ and the trumpet. Cool. And the skin flute. Hello?

I Trump it. Well I don't know why Trump jam and he's drawing a deck on his, on uh, notebook.

So Jim, are you still with us or take another Adderall? Like what's going on? So am I boring you? No, no, no. Um, I've some more questions please. Um, what was your first CD when I first saw it? Maybe your first song had no mind. I don't mind too. I know mind cause it can't[inaudible] we only do digital. They send me Napster light. I mean, literally he's like CD. Meanwhile we're buying records for a contagious disease. I'm like, CBD. Is that a financial term? So mine was, and it's like, honey, if you didn't know I was gay at this point saying no, mine wasn't Aaron Carter Gay as hell. Wow. You're definitely not.[inaudible] is not. No. They're like, oh God. Like our son is like that. Aaron. I like his bangs on, that's why I like the salon. He has frosted tips. What's he doing with his light? His like, he's lucky to be alive. He's lucky to be alive. I was like came out gay by[inaudible] Gay by the hard rock cafe in Pittsburgh actually. What is up with Pennsylvania? All these famous[inaudible]? Yeah, like I went to the Aaron Carter concert. My Dad bought me scatters, obsessed with spice girls, so I could see that with music videos. As far as seeing my cousin in shock music videos are me and my underwear. Oh, your 20s are now? Yeah. What? Um, mine was Eisa base. Oh, that's kind of gay. Is it what you going do on them dog on the wheel of fortune. I know that's not my time. I don't know that song either. How was that like 42 seventies it was like my first CD though. Just saying my first CD was cracked because it got sent while the package in the mail. It was sent in the mail like gas, I don't know. It was outside the mailbox in the street and someone put it in a box. It was Brittany Spears first CD. Well, my mom loved it. My mom bought us free. I can see the both me and my sister, I'm the one with, oops, hit it again and y'all and I'm like, okay, why did my parents, not one of my mom not know? Then when I was like, can I get the Brittany Spears CD? Mommy what? Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears and Jessica Samsungs. I was like, uh Oh my God. Can I tell you when I'm going to miss something too? I don't care. I'm going for right now. Oh, go. I used to do a little rude. I'm not a dancer by any means. Like I hate dancing as an adult. I hate dancing. You love it. But honey, I would put on that end sing by wine in the basement and I would pretend like I would do like the moves and like pretend like I was in the band. That's what I did is face girls. So that's like what gay people videos.[inaudible] videos. I remember my birthday party was at our town gym. Like it was like a deal. You weren't doing athletic stuff. Athletics. I was literally running around the locker room again was riding around the[inaudible] Aaron's party. Come get it like that. If you're that kid, you're really wild as a kid. Did you have like Ritalin? No, I wasn't actually. Not at all. But they just did crack their riddle. WHATSAPP. No, it was just all repressed. So that's why I see a therapist now. Well therapy is[inaudible]. We've taught, you know since you listened to our last episode. Yeah. Cause he listened to one of those gates. Just slutty puffin. Well the whole getting out. Yeah, the whole coming out thing. Nos, getting out, get out. I'm getting out because I actually hooked up with a guy during undergrad before that was my first sexual experience. Same, same before I came. Just one. Right on craigslist. So is that why you like, so that's why you like Spain. That's why you learn Spanish. So he could hook up with Spanish. I'm gonna go chase him to Spain. I'm going to follow the[inaudible]. He's married. He's married now to a woman. So wow.[inaudible] blocked me on Facebook, but he told his girlfriend[inaudible] it's really funny cause it's funny cause my mom doesn't know what happened and she's like, she's like, Dave, did you know that? Blah blah, blah. Got Married. And I'm like, Huh, on Facebook, they're still friends on Facebook. He blocked me. So that's awkward. Yeah. It's really funny though because small town America, it's really funny because when I told one of my uncles, when I told one of my uncles, he was like, Oh, here's the guy you brought home to thanksgiving, wasn't it? He went to the thing where you have a gay uncle. We're talking about hookups, but now he's at Thanksgiving.[inaudible]. I took the two Spaniards that were in the u s it's like a goodwill job.[inaudible] you teach me that gesture has the stuffing. Let's pray on our knees. No. Well, I think it's, we're wrapping up. I would like to ask you one last question though. Whoa. Tell somebody who's trying to escape rural America. Like what would you tell your younger self or like somebody who's even need to escape or do you, what is this seltzer? I'm burping. So to fucking do that can be the best episode ever or the absolute fucking worse and I'm not apologizing for it. So what would I tell them? I would tell them to make the best of the situation they're in. Because a lot of times we can't change the situations that we can, but sometimes we can't. Or there's certain aspects of our life that you can't change. Trade show make the best that you can. If you're in a position where you're not feeling safe, for example, or something like that, or maybe you feel that it's the right time, you know yourself

best and when it's the right time to be honest with yourself and other people. So if you are honest with other people and you don't feel safe afterwards, obviously remove yourself from that situation. Um, but I would tell them things do get better. You might not think that in the moment, right. But along the way you're gonna live experiences that change your way of seeing the world and that ultimately do make you a stronger and better person. So

that's beautiful. I like that. Okay. Thank you. I try. Well, we're really glad that you came on the show. Thanks for having me. I hopefully this isn't our last episode cause they're gonna be like they get, I'm going to edit. I will hope. I certainly hope so. But um, we do appreciate you coming on and telling us your story and talking with us about all the topics. At the beginning, I don't even remember. We were talking about, oh, we had Manji on, I think this was about roller marathons. You, sorry, that's kind of rural. It's kind of just getting this[inaudible] that a copyright copyright problem. Maybe not. If you say[inaudible] and copyright, Tom, you've God, I wish you would've said[inaudible] and froggy straights. Go look up Ms Vanji[inaudible] and this has been another wonderful fucking episode. I really hope that you stick with us next week as we talk about something maybe, I don't know, like a little something more on topics. Something more. Well No, cause I mean the topic we don't have top, there was no topic. We were talking like, you know, this is just us. What was there? A couple of Bros with some white claw were meeting. You were having some white claws. We were talking about some, you know, browse drinking and talking about that. Have you back again. So I kind of want to get the, the, the crowd wasn't as say listeners to talk about gender next. Not quite a crowd or I'm hungry. If I'm ready, I'm hungry. Thirsty. We'll have another, we'll get a forth in here. Oh, maybe we'll get somebody whose life barely room for three. I mean we get like Roxy Nicole in here. Oh my God, I would love that. Yeah, I would too because I feel like she has a lot to say. She's got a lot and she's so fun to watch on insight now. Sorry. You go follow her. Are you going to end the show now? Yup. Branding and that's about it. Folks. Thank you for listening by the sound of my voice of the listeners and I was saying that 30 minutes ago. Thank God. Yeah. What I love is that I haven't hit stop yet. Okay, bye bye.

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